Do you ever get the feeling that the fates are trying to tell you something?
You’re not comfortable in your skin, you’re stressed-out and sad, you’re hitting brick walls in your career and then a global crisis comes along and just magnifies it all by about a thousand.
I haven’t had much luck lately. My mental health has taken a nose drive resulting in me seeking therapy to make improvements, my last two jobs have ended in upset and disaster and all of this uncertainty has made my anxiety levels rocket. I just don’t feel like anything is working.
Finding myself unemployed for the first time in my life, in the midst of a world-wide pandemic has been an interesting experience. Yes, it’s pretty rubbish and I worry what on earth I’m going to do next, but I’m also met with an eerie calm. I feel relieved and like some chains that were weighing me down have been lifted.
“Sometimes it takes a string of bad luck, a spell of poor mental health and a global pandemic to give you the kick you need to do something productive.”
So here I am, jobless, clueless and a worryingly directionless…but actually kind of excited! In an odd sort of way, the world is my oyster.
The constraints of the 9-5 office job have gone, and I’m thinking about who I am, what I value and what I can do with the time and skills I have.
Getting back into blogging came high on the priorities list, far more important than, you know, finding a job or anything sensible!
I’m very passionate about mental health and well-being so I have started a new Instagram channel as well as this blog site to document the highs and lows of recovering from some complex issues.
I’d love to spend this extra time working on myself, altering unhelpful thought patterns and behaviours and really delving into why I am the way I am.
I don’t think it’ll be easy, and I must admit the look on my therapists face was one of shock and disbelief when I said I finally want to nail the demons that I’ve avoided for most of my life. I usually shrug them off and file them away in a box labelled ‘things we must not disturb’ – but I feel like there may never be a better time to finally tackle this stuff. I have no distractions or excuses anymore and nothing but time to spend making a true difference to my life, outlook and future.
So that’s why I’ve titled this blog as I have…
I’m Georgie, and I’m starting over.